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Lately, love’s been on my mind.

Disclaimer: I’ve never been in love, and I can’t say that anyone has ever been in love with me. Afterall, how do you know until you just know? It’s part feeling, right? I’ve never felt it. So, that’s how I know.

I always imagined being in love to be likened to a warm and cozy feeling despite wintry conditions. It’s the scent of warm vanilla and cinnamon and freshly baked pastries in a kitchen with powdered sugar and maple syrup to drizzle over.
I see love as the feeling is always welcoming even when there is conflict. I see love being gentle, caring, judgement-free.
My love will be as subtle as it will be loud.
My love will not be forced. It will be natural. It’ll be easily reciprocated without a second thought or question. Unconditional and not bound by ownership, but by companionship.
One that is blessed.

May it be so.

May I find the love that I seek in a partner who likes me, loves me, cares for me, and wants to see me thrive as much as I want to see him thrive.
May all our desires come to pass as a unit and individually.
May we fall in love more with each passing day.
May we clear hurdles and break bonds that hold us down.
May we rise from the ashes of fires sent or set to burn us.
May we feel safe and embrace vulnerability in our space of physical and mental undress.
May I? May we?

May I acknowledge my flaws in communication and address them to face our future with clear and purposeful conversations without any muddy water.
May you.
May I love myself unconditionally without having to clutch or depend on love from you to feel like I’m worthy.
May you
May I find home in you.
May you, in me.
May I? May we?

May I rest more easily and comfortably into my feminine energy.
May you rest more easily and comfortably into your masculine energy.
May we do that without the say-so and false narratives of everyone and everything external to us and our journey.
May I sing sweet songs from the lyrics that you’ve written in your love letters to me.
May you.
May I strum the strings on my acoustic guitar and may you beat the drums to mend our hearts
May I stand in the drizzle to feel each drop against my skin.
May you be there beside me to feel what I feel
May you cloak us in our raincoat and protect our feet with water boots
May we seek refuge amidst lightning and thunder
May I. May we.

When the storms pass by
May we soak up the rays on sunny and cloud-free days
May our skin glisten under the protection of SPF and an umbrella
May we hold each other accountable without issuing harm triggering defensiveness.
May we nurture, may we build.
May we prioritise health in all spheres, and may we maximise on wealth and prosperity.
May I. May we.

May it be so.
May I – May You – May We

May I Share Some Life Lessons In Love?

As you’ve read and probably seen, I want so much out of love – and I have no intention of bending my expectations for something that’s near or the next best thing. Here they are:

• Self-Awareness and Honesty: Acknowledging that I’ve never been in love and being honest about my feelings is, in my opinion, a step towards self-awareness and it’s important to understand and accept where I am along my journey.

• Open-Mindedness: I’m willing to embrace new experiences and being open to love. Even though I’ve never felt it before, this shows my willingness to grow and explore new possibilities. After all, love is an open door.

• Self-Love and Independence: I purposely emphasised loving myself unconditionally and not depending on someone else’s love to feel worthy. That’s critical, I think, to be a whole individual in a union and as such, it is a crucial lesson. Self-love and independence are foundational to healthy relationships.

Yes, there are more that I could highlight, but then this would be an essay, and I won’t be doing that. Thanks for being here. Till next time.

Signed,

The Suburban Girl JA®